Tell me baby, pretty baby, that this house is not a grave yard.

So, I was just thinking about something Gerard said in one of his interviews.

He always says things that get to me, but this struck me as strange at the time. I actually thought, "Who actually does that?"

But I do it.

Every day. 

He said, "It's when it becomes an escape that it's a major problem. Like, if this happens, then I'll just, you know..." He was talking about suicide.

I do that so often, i think, "Well, if I can't handle doing that, I could always kill myself."

 I know people say that to themselves sometimes, as a joke or something, but I do it pretty often.

Sometimes I catch myself in a thought and stop, but it comes up so often that it's starting to scare me a little bit. Anyway, I still feel really alone, but I'm talking to Kevin on AIM, and he's making me feel better.

I told him about being really depressed earlier.

He made me feel better, even though he was just being a freak :]

I love that freaking asian.

timeswerebetter (10:55:21 PM): i've been a mess all day. i slept until one, then cried because i so freaking depressed for like an hour, then slept, then screamed at everyone

timeswerebetter (10:55:33 PM): then sprayed scott with glitter.

timeswerebetter (10:55:42 PM): im so freakign alone. i hate it.

Drawingz22 (10:55:48 PM): o.o

Drawingz22 (10:55:53 PM): ur weirfooo

Drawingz22 (10:55:54 PM): :]

Drawingz22 (10:55:57 PM): we gettta chil fridayyyy