Please, please, I'm running out of sympathy.

Yeah, it's been a while.

whatever.

There's not a lot of times when I feel so utterly lonely. Even though Scott is downstairs with his friend Josh, and my mom is in the kitchen, when I'm sitting here alone in my room, listening to the 58 new songs I bought off iTunes today (I told my mom I only bought 32...oops. ;]) I feel empty. I've never been the most popular kid, but up until this year, I've always had someone to talk to.

In my head, I know I can just call someone, anyone, and have a conversation for a few hours, or minutes. But I'm still sitting here, staring at my phone.

Because I can't shake the thought that no one wants to talk to me.

I'll make a list of people I could to talk to in my current state of despair.

I like lists...

Brenda- Probably talking to Alanna, or listening to music. I don't want to interrupt.

Brennan- It's a holiday, so he's at his dad's house. If his phone goes off at his dad's house any later than 5, he gets in huge trouble. Plus, he normally overreacts to everything.

Katie- She doesn't have a cell phone, and calling people's house this late always seems to be high up in the DONT DO'S of a parent's handbook. 

 WE STOP THIS LIST FOR AN IMPORTANT CELL PHONE CALL

Brennan called :]

We talked for about 4 minutes. Then he got all awkward and hung up.

Alone all over again.

sigh.